i like what is happening here

so ppl have been visiting my pages and my blogs and i like that. even though i know who it is she still signs off as anonymous, and i wudn't be surprised if she denies it all. but the best part is tha she cant do much other that just telling me where m going wrong. i like that, coz it proves the fact that what i am doing is making a mark and ppl want me to change to their liking. and i have been doing that so much now, that m getting sick of that. seriously, i mean i have been moulding myself so much that i have began to lose whi i am. and it hurts, coz, the more i mould myself, the more is asked from me. but then again it will happen only till a point, and after that there wudn't be anything left for me to change and then it wud all end. coz i cant change anymore, and when i cant change, i refuse to obey the law of nature. and then nature will either destroy me or the circumstances that give rise to all that change. i dont want either to happen. i wish that whil i change it is noticed and i am not asked to let go of myself completely. i wanna live happily. i wanna love like i never wud love again. i wanna feel loved i wud never experience it. i want to be cared for just as i wud care for u, i want to be heard just as i wud listen to you. i want you to be my greatest admirer just as i am yours. i want you to defend me against all my criticism, just as i do. i love my life and i want you to love yours.oh god, gimme my happiness back. gimme my freedom back. give it back to me. please god, please.