Yeah...

my friend put up my sketch u know. and hey i know now what its like to feel like ur dream come true. u wanna see the metamorphosis, go to www.lifehasaresetbutton.blogspot.com and u'll see it evolving there. thanx to his 2 megapixel cam fone, and thanx to adobe. this is my dedication to my beloved. man i feel on top of the world today.!!!

m bored

m so bored today!!! gosh one fuckin loooooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggg day!!! saala koi kaam hi nahi hai! i am sooo sleepy. dad is going back tonite and he is palpitating for his tickets. lets see what can be done as far as that is concerned. lets see. yaaaaaaawwwwnnnn........man i gotta go meet ruchi also and then i gotta recharge my phone too...damn man i am so lazy today. finally got over all my diary entry times. its gud fun u know. i blog here and back in my room i write diaries.so if some1 was to read me they'd have to see both the places!!. neways i'll go now and then come back tomorrow maybe. megha is coming into town soon so that shud be nice. lets see.
chalo bye

ever felt this way

Hey have u ever felt that u were just walking in a passage and like it was just a walk. that u knew what was at the end and u knew its not what u want and still walked. as if there was something which kept telling you that go on, maybe u are not right. maybe there is something else, maybe there is a turn in the passage. i mean seriously, i have always beleived that there is light at the end of the tunnel, but whether thats the sunshine or the oncoming train is something u don't realise too soon. we sometimes know that ppl are takin us for a ride and all that shit and still we go on. at least i do. everyday i tell myself i'll change, the more i resist the pattern, the stronger it gets, and the worse is when i declare it to someone that i am going to change and they see me going completely opposite and then they mock u further or ask u stupid questions like - why??
seriously, i need to take time out man. but think bout it, if u felt this way. we shall talk then

i like what is happening here

so ppl have been visiting my pages and my blogs and i like that. even though i know who it is she still signs off as anonymous, and i wudn't be surprised if she denies it all. but the best part is tha she cant do much other that just telling me where m going wrong. i like that, coz it proves the fact that what i am doing is making a mark and ppl want me to change to their liking. and i have been doing that so much now, that m getting sick of that. seriously, i mean i have been moulding myself so much that i have began to lose whi i am. and it hurts, coz, the more i mould myself, the more is asked from me. but then again it will happen only till a point, and after that there wudn't be anything left for me to change and then it wud all end. coz i cant change anymore, and when i cant change, i refuse to obey the law of nature. and then nature will either destroy me or the circumstances that give rise to all that change. i dont want either to happen. i wish that whil i change it is noticed and i am not asked to let go of myself completely. i wanna live happily. i wanna love like i never wud love again. i wanna feel loved i wud never experience it. i want to be cared for just as i wud care for u, i want to be heard just as i wud listen to you. i want you to be my greatest admirer just as i am yours. i want you to defend me against all my criticism, just as i do. i love my life and i want you to love yours.oh god, gimme my happiness back. gimme my freedom back. give it back to me. please god, please.