Here I Am....or am i?

I stand here lookin at this life.

sleep deprived i face my reality, hoping that this is not my destiny

while the singers sing dani california

i ask myself why did i wait for ya

why dint i mourn ya

why did i let it go on



I stand here lookin at the world.

hungry for peace, hoping this is not the end

while the mockers mock me

fuck me, hate me, eat my brains

i go on asking

why did i let it happen


I stand here trying to understand myself.

i gave up my life

i gave up my soul

and no it wasn't for nothing

hope u understand it now

u wasted the chance that i gave u

so m never gonna look at u, nemore



U shuda taken the walk back home

U shuda never come this far

coz here i am finding the truth

here i am beleiving the days as the pass by

here i am chasing life again

here i am happier without you

here i am letting you go

here i am chasing away all feelings

here i am, all numb

here i am...or am i?


yes! yes! yes!


HERE I AM.....n walkin straight.

The hard way...

Well i learnt the ahrd way, and ur day's coming soon! I pray u'll make it thru!

life seems to keep taking a lot of twists and turns for me. guess m used to it, n the straight line theory doesn't apply to me anymore. just had a discussion wid my brother and we decided to call ourselves what makes everyone else around us happy - losers or failures! strange as it sounds i flipped it instantaneously and decided we kud loose at losing and fail at failing...just to make that prophecy self fulfilling. I am just a simple man. but i guess ppl dont see it that way. As i said, the straight line theory doesn't work for me anymore!! Dunno when it ever did.

Life is good and u dont need rosy glasses to look at it, contrary to what one of my friend beleives..u just need to look around with naked eyes, and put on ur Ray Bans when its too sunny. Sounds kinda stupid doesn't it, i know but i feel it has meaning. I was told i am melodramatic! trust me I am!!!

M pretty much back on track, thanx to...myself!

Well hello world, its good to be back on solid ground. Whew the flyte was too much!!