Its the 3rd of June, 1986, 0445 hrs. I am born into this world under lighnitng and storm.
21 years later, nuthing much has changed.....its 0245 hrs, 2 hours to complete the circle around the big star and there's still lighning and storm in my head....guess the weather had come to stay!
Can't sleep....and i am known to be sleepy forever. I don't know why, but there's a person out there i want to love and a person out there i want to kill....for quite some time now, they've been the same, as in its been the same person....and for quite some time the former has been eluding me, the latter been taken up by more than one person. But that is not something we don not experience. I keep saying nothing is constant except change....but seems like my own saying is going back on me....I am just as lost as a pin in a haystack! No m not the pin, neither am I the haystack...I am the searcher, and i am trying hard to know why i have to find that pin. Why this particular pin, i dont seem to be getting an answer, but i search nevertheless..
Love- its a thing you know. You win some u lose some. its worse than money....ppl are crazy bout money, but they earn money to be able to gain love from many sources. Even if it is false! There's no feeling greater than the feeling of knowing that u are loved by someone. The only feeling that can match it is the feeling to know that someone who loved you, doesn't anymore...and i talk only about the intensity. Its the -1 and +1 are equal in a respect. they are both equidisatnt from 0.
Life - is a journey as most ppl say. but what is the journey about...where does it lead to...some smart alecs would say death. but heck there is nothing like that....life is not a journey. its a book. its like u flip a page evryday. most of the times you decide what will be written on that page...in fact 90/100 times u do. and the 10 times u dont, u at least can decide on 5 /10 from those what will influence the writing. but the remaining 5 is what we always crib about...evn i do. imagine 95% of my life is in my hands and i still ruin it over he remaining 5%!!! we humans are funny.
The way i see it, we live our lives running backwards! You can always see the past, and never the future....spooky isn't it? well its true nevertheless...
But sometimes i ask myself, do i really wanna see the future...? Do you...? wouldn't thake away the excitement of life....?
I wish i kud stop running backwards though, its so stupid and inconvinient!
love....is somethign i don't think i'll ever experienc again. i experienced it in the true sense...but i also saw the darkest possib;e side of it! and it hurt....it is unimaginable, so dont ever ask me what i saw...its a time when even the most hardened hearts cried, and i mean it....
Perfection- evryone wants it and no one has it! thats all i can say bout it...
why am i writing all this....coz tomorrow with sunrise, i am trying to be a new person. a new me. i know that the scent of the past is going to lingher on me...but then it has to come off....my soul has to dawn a new look and an new outlook. instead of being a human and having points of view, m gonna try and be the way god does it, have points to view....at least in my life and prioritize them....Gud luck Forward.
21 years later, nuthing much has changed.....its 0245 hrs, 2 hours to complete the circle around the big star and there's still lighning and storm in my head....guess the weather had come to stay!
Can't sleep....and i am known to be sleepy forever. I don't know why, but there's a person out there i want to love and a person out there i want to kill....for quite some time now, they've been the same, as in its been the same person....and for quite some time the former has been eluding me, the latter been taken up by more than one person. But that is not something we don not experience. I keep saying nothing is constant except change....but seems like my own saying is going back on me....I am just as lost as a pin in a haystack! No m not the pin, neither am I the haystack...I am the searcher, and i am trying hard to know why i have to find that pin. Why this particular pin, i dont seem to be getting an answer, but i search nevertheless..
Love- its a thing you know. You win some u lose some. its worse than money....ppl are crazy bout money, but they earn money to be able to gain love from many sources. Even if it is false! There's no feeling greater than the feeling of knowing that u are loved by someone. The only feeling that can match it is the feeling to know that someone who loved you, doesn't anymore...and i talk only about the intensity. Its the -1 and +1 are equal in a respect. they are both equidisatnt from 0.
Life - is a journey as most ppl say. but what is the journey about...where does it lead to...some smart alecs would say death. but heck there is nothing like that....life is not a journey. its a book. its like u flip a page evryday. most of the times you decide what will be written on that page...in fact 90/100 times u do. and the 10 times u dont, u at least can decide on 5 /10 from those what will influence the writing. but the remaining 5 is what we always crib about...evn i do. imagine 95% of my life is in my hands and i still ruin it over he remaining 5%!!! we humans are funny.
The way i see it, we live our lives running backwards! You can always see the past, and never the future....spooky isn't it? well its true nevertheless...
But sometimes i ask myself, do i really wanna see the future...? Do you...? wouldn't thake away the excitement of life....?
I wish i kud stop running backwards though, its so stupid and inconvinient!
love....is somethign i don't think i'll ever experienc again. i experienced it in the true sense...but i also saw the darkest possib;e side of it! and it hurt....it is unimaginable, so dont ever ask me what i saw...its a time when even the most hardened hearts cried, and i mean it....
Perfection- evryone wants it and no one has it! thats all i can say bout it...
why am i writing all this....coz tomorrow with sunrise, i am trying to be a new person. a new me. i know that the scent of the past is going to lingher on me...but then it has to come off....my soul has to dawn a new look and an new outlook. instead of being a human and having points of view, m gonna try and be the way god does it, have points to view....at least in my life and prioritize them....Gud luck Forward.
