Closer

And so it is..........
just like you said it woul be.............

this one's dedicated to a friend.

its so sad to see him go thru what i had once pictured myself to go thru. a life where i wud fell alone. a life wid no friends. a life where i feel as if i am standing at the edge of the beach and the green sea is raving in front of me while the rain soaks my skin to the bone. it aint good. this life is not meant to be wasted standing at the edge waiting for nothing...........just waiting

and so it is......................
the colder water................

yes the wate r is colder...........it is freezing my blood.

a son separated from mother
a son pitched against a father
a brother left wid no choice but to leave his sibling.......................


no.........

it cant happen, someone needs to make that change asap
i did , but not asap.
i could retain my mother in separation, but my battle against my father is on........and will never end

but there wud be no more battles
there will be no more loneliness
there will just be free and pure air
yes................


the pupil........indeed............high.............

yes it will come true my friend
it will come true

The only thing Stable is Change... (1)

aint that true my dear reader. think bout it, havent u changed with the wahtever time you have spent on this earth. there is no thing as stability and peace and harmony. think bout it. how many things around you have remained the same. have your friends remained the same, has ur institution remained the same, has your outlook to life remained the same, haven't you parents changed towards you, haven't you changed towards your children, has your boss been the same all thjis while, has boss been the same guy all this while,... what around you has remained stable?

i know for a fact that the only thing stable is just change. there's a saying which goes - time and tide change all - hey, even the tide changes with time!!!

i mean this is so profound man. there was a time when i was into having fun all the times, ppl took me for granted..........then i changed and became some1 who was pikin up fights all the time, so ppl started hating me...........so i changed and i became some1 who was Mr. Nice guy, ppl thtought i wasn't mindidng my business.............so i changed to some1 who was completely naive to all situations, so again ppl took me for granted...........so i changed again and became some1 who chose to be naive to situations and kept everything in perspective, so ppl became vary of me..............so i change dto someone who became indifferent to ppl...............result now is that ppl are bloody confused with what i am about............so u see i was in constant change!!

now check this out.......i fell in love so to say for the ifrst time when i was in.......mmmmmmmmm...........i think class five or something. as of then i dint know shit bout what i was feeling. i guess i was just enjoying her company but it got termed as "love" by my friends............then it changed............the next was when i was in 7th, dude i was forever falling in love then. thatwas one helluva time dude, like i got hit on, was hitting on........tragedy happened man, my crush had a crush on me and by the time i kud get it out of her, dude like my dad got posted out and i kudn't spend like even a day with her after i came to know botu her feelings........then i changed n i decided that love was not for me...........and that's when i hit my later teens..........fuck you know the feeling then, u go crazy and you just want anyone and everyone to be your girlfriend...............so i changed again into this despo with an attitude. u know, not lettin ppl know of it, but craving inside and all of that. did some really funny things then. yeah if you are someone i know then, u wud recognize Dmitri Rodrigues!!! niways for those of you who can't i'll narrate that some other time, exchanged souls wid him etc..yeah so along came polly, no that wasn't her name. i know u figured it out. niways so i got hooked , no i hooked myself up with this chick and was with her foir like some two years ..........wanted it to last but she began boring me. i mean one of the things true for all geminis is that u bore em too much with your wierd ass stories and keep plonking them with your issues in,life and sideline them of crap, they'll get tired of you and so did i, but this time, before me this one changed herself. she probly wasn't gettin the same response from me anymore, so like we broke up. and a series of torrents and basically crap happened............then i fell in love again, this time with some1 who was awready engaged with some1 else and was as tired as i was...........sometimes i feel guilty of myself feeling responsible for her break up. but trust me knowing what he was upto, i freak out whenenver i think bout em together. anyways, that'll be another blog, bout a few men out there who are MCP's. did u read that one, u dint? neways so now there are more changes happening. from a condescendidng helper i have chanhged into a companion..........and she is changing from being on path to self destruct to path to self realisation.

what else, whoa dat was long was it?

my parents, ..............

oh crap....my program cordinator called me................change in mood now
see what i mean
change is permanent
will write part2 soon

i mean like ....whatever !?!?!?!?!

so here i am writing thi huge blog sitting in the like state of the art building of my comapny which cant provide fuckin UPS to the comps and whoosh, there's a change of supply line and the data just goes away!!!

and all i can say to that whtever!!

u know i was like venting out my anger against a lot of women out there who have decided that men are nothing but playthings or that men don't understand women. well now that i have lost all my anger to that and m just disgusted by the way things function, so all m gonna say to these women is that try to understand men at times. u think u have complexities in life well u dont have a friggin clue about how complex a man's life can be. what u need to realise that men dont have their brains up their arses and that they dont tink fro their dicks. yes i do agree that there are some disgusting MCP's there but Duuh, that is like hardly an xcuse to be a FCS, a Female Chauvanistic Sow!!! so get out of it and well i aint here to preach a fuckin thing, so all i gotta say is that be what u must, u wanna be a FCS, go ahead, my best of wishes for you to be able to be that, but then don't complain that there are so many MCP's around. i mean ever thought bout why there are MCP's ? well for the simple reason that women portrya them like that. what does a mom do when she hs to scare the child, " are you going to behave yourself or should i call your father?!!", "you wait u ruffian, i'll tell your dad bout this, u just wait" "today i will tell your papa and then he'll teach you a lesson!!"

i mean like what the fuck is that about?? huh?

and then we men get branded as MCP's

else check this out...

"Oh honey you are so good. u are so strong, won't you help me lift all my stuff"

what a fuckin bitch man, fyuckin conniving bitch!!

or else, " u are so intelligent, please gimme you notes so i can study as well, and then we can go out and have fun"

i mean the bloody dumbwit gives her the notes, loses time drooling over her coz she takes the notes and makes the best of it, and then he fuckin goes along like a dog and spends "QUALITY TIME" with her!!!

and then we are MCP's

i mean like whatever man!!!

anyways, my message to all you ladies out there. the world cannot do without you, and trust me they wanna do with you, but everything exists in pairs, so stop being asses and realise that the world cant do without us as well. and stop PMSing all the time man,

I mean like ...WHATEVER!!!